Trying to figure out me, my feelings. Before I end up hurt this man. Truth be I know I'm not quiet over my ex, even tho I know I should be. Feelings for him, nonexistent. But I still am feeling the heart break every day. It's gotten a lot lighter, but still can bring me to tears.
My love for him is that of a dead animal, they will always have a place in your heart but you can no longer feel the love you once had for them. I love him because he is apart of my daughter...and she is my everything.
I was told the other day everything I'm feeling is normal, that eased my mind a bit.
Wish I could enjoy my music again, without thoughts of him. No matter what kind of genera, if it's anything but dub step then my mind reverts back to him.
I'm starting counseling with in the month, it will be good for me. Hopefully I'll be mindfully healthy again. I miss the real me.
I stumble, I fall, I'm still learning.
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